284 - - My Final Words -
I just want this to be over with.
I'll just take all that responsibility,
I'll just say what ever you think is right.
I'll just be who ever you think I am.
I'll just live as the person you see me as.
I'll take all the fault from every fight.
I'll take anything you throw at me.
I'll make it seem pointless to talk to.
I'll make life easier for you.
I'm just going to cry over mishaps.
I'm just going to try to make it right.
I'm just a person with dreams that are too big.
I'm just going to pull you down.
I'm worth nothing to you.
I don't mean anything to you.
I won't be anything to you.
I won't ever be what you want me to.
I won't agree with everything you think.
I can't listen to everything you say.
What else do you need me to do.
What else do you need me to go through.
What else do you want me to say.
What else do you want me to choose.
How many more times do you need me to cry over you.
How many more times are you going to hurt me.
How many more things are you going to do to me.
I've cried so many times,
Just because I cared.
Now I've had enough,
But I still cry everyday.
Its not your fault,
Its mine, isn't it?
Nothing was ever your fault,
I made that choice,
I made that foolish statement.
I was the one who didn't understand.
I was the one who made it this way.
I should have just stood up to her.
I should have just embarrassed her
in front of so many people.
But I didn't, and now everything comes
back to me.
I don't know what to do,
but I know I'm at fault.
I truly think this in my heart,
if you want to think its
sarcasm, fine with me.
I want no more part of
living this crazy life,
this stupid path I chose.
If I chose another path,
maybe this wouldn't happen.
But there's no going back.
I'll just live with it,
move on, cry about it.
There's nothing I can do if
you don't want to talk to me.
I won't say anything else,
I wouldn't want to disturb
the peace in your world now.
So I'll just go alone,
There's nothing else I can do.
There's no use forcing you to talk to me,
so I give up.
The last I can say is Sorry.
But its just another word.
Nothing changes with
just another word, I guess.
I just wish I could have
just made a better choice.