Saturday, February 2, 2013

 346 -

Been crying way too much the past few months or so...
Maybe it's a big joke on me again...

I keep regretting making things worse but I just can't
keep everything in my heart or I'll regret not saying
anything...

Why can't I just be one of those perfect girlfriends
who never makes her boyfriend mad or angry or sad...

Why can't I be the kind of girl who isn't easily irritated
whenever my period is coming or when I'm ovulating...

Why can't I just be someone good enough for you...

Or at least someone who doesn't make you mad all the time...

Or maybe the least of the least not give you this crappy
attitude of mine...

I never wanted to make you mad...

I never wanted to piss you off...

I never thought that you'd be mine...

But ever since you were mine, it just feels like
I can't get enough of you and I never want to make you
mad or piss you off because you were all I ever wanted...

So why do I keep pissing you off?

Why am I such a pathetic girlfriend?

I wish I could be perfect for you...

I wish you would stay with me even when I'm not
perfect for you...

Even though I'm not good enough...

I hope that one day I will be perfect and good enough,
but till then I really hope and pray that you'll stay...

I can handle anyone else leaving me, but
if you leave... I don't think I'll be able to even
do any work or study anymore...

Even the thought of you leaving is bringing me to tears...

I hate myself for being so stupid... And not being good enough...

Gawd, I wonder if GOD is just playing a sick trick on me
and giving me my dream then ripping it away from me
by giving me such a crappy attitude...

I wish I could change my attitude... I wish I could be perfect for you...

I don't wanna continue living if I don't have you with me...

ENDx ---

4:04 PM

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

 345-

Okay so it's been like a super long time since I've been back here~
Started poly life ^^ It's awesome? :D But there's a tonne of homework >.<
So yeah~ ^^ It's just fun to be in a course that I love :P
It might not be SUPER fun cause of the homework, but it's still fun cause
I'm surrounded by people with the same interests ^^
And of course showered by love from my dear boyfriend XD
And of course, I've made a few close friends and met a few bitches already ^^
But well, that's life :P It's been approximately 7months and 10 days since
I've been with Dion ^^ And YEAH confession! I never thought he'd be
my boyfriend for like ever! >.< And it really is a dream to be with him ^^
Even though he sleeps A LOT :P But yeah, he still cares and he's super
sweet ^-^ He knows me more than I know me ._. Which is cool but
kinda weird at the same time :D But he's heading to Genting tomorrow for
like 3 days? :/ So I won't be able to see him for an entire week >:
And I'm just totally not used to it T.T So I guess my mind is kinda missing
him already? :/ Cause lately, I've been dreaming about him for the past 2 nights
ever since he took his jacket back >: And yeah ._. So that's about it? ^^
Something I'm working on right now is a 3D Palmon using Autodesk Maya ^^

Here's a preview of the head, body and leg shape~ ^^

And I'll miss this boy >;

ENDx ---

10:14 PM

Saturday, April 14, 2012

344 -

Like seriously? You want me to stay home more often, but when my friend comes over cause I can't go out, you get mad. Like what the eff?! What do you want from me?! I can't go out and I can't ask my friend to come over. Seriously, what the heck la.. You don't want me to go out, so I stay home. But you don't like it when my friend comes over everyday. So what the heck do you want sia.. Will you only be satisfied once I start having zero social life again?! Stare at a computer the whole day also get scolded. Watch tv the whole day also get scolded. Play game whole day also get scolded. WHAT YOU WANT?! Make me READ the whole day?! FINE LA! Seriously... Use my phone also get scolded.. What the hell... Is your main objective to make me feel all alone again? Is it to make me lose the people I love and care about?
I know you might mean well, but dad.. I'm 17.. If you don't want me to stay home and get my friend to keep me company AND don't want me to go out with my friends, you've seriously got a problem. I know it's cause you care about my well-being and studies, but it's seriously too much to be this protective of me. At this rate, I'm gonna lose the people I never wanna lose. And it's all cause of you..
But to look at it positively, GOD is testing how strong our feelings are for each other.. How much we can take before we decide to turn away. It's a blessing in discuise. And if this is what I have to put up with to stay with you, I don't mind. I just hope I'll be strong enough to keep pushing on, and that you won't give up either..

Endx ---

11:44 PM

Monday, March 19, 2012

343 -

Just where do I stand with you?

I said I wouldn't regret, but now all I'm doing is trying to forget.

All I want now is to know,

Who am I to you?

Where do I stand?

And why me of all people?

Why me...

There are billions of other girls out there,

So why me of all people?

I know that GOD planned this,

I know it's for me to learn from this experience.

I wouldn't regret meeting you,

But now I'm questioning myself.

I know it's a lesson of how to deal with a relationship.

Things I need to take note of and never repeat,

I learnt that I need to make time for people I actually care for.

I learnt that I can't trust everyone out there.

I've learnt that there are things I have to stand up for.

I've learnt so much, and I only have GOD to Thank for everything.

Now all I need is to think through everything to see if you really are the one.

If you really are worth the fight.

If you're worth my time and love to keep.

If you really do care about me.

If what you've said in the past still stands.

If you still care...

If all you wanted wasn't me.

If all you wanted was what jerks wanted.

If I really should trust you.

IF...

ENDx ---

12:55 AM

Monday, March 5, 2012

342 -

Haven't been here in a long time ^-^

I just remembered I had this here all along ♥

I'm not sure why but the music still calms

me whenever I come back.. Hehe ^^

Okay so for some updates?

November 2011 = Nothing much.

My first job obviously sucked,

Stock check -_-" Horrible job to have.

Especially 'cause of that old fart there.

Hate that guy to the maximum, kay? ^-^

Anyways, Started work on my second job

on the 27th. Awesome job ^^ Met some really

nice people on the first and second day~

December 2011 ~ Random Much?

1st & 2nd of December, spent at my new job,

under NCS ^~^ Patchy, but okay. I'm getting used

to it. Met a new guy on the 1st, Darren, didn't talk to him though.

Only talked to him on the 2nd ^^

After that we kept talking and texting.

Hehe ^-^ And I don't know how but

he just became my bf all of a sudden.

So yeah, hahax ^~^

January 2012 - New Year + Collection Of Results.

Crappy but time flew~ ^^

Job got uber boring :(

*thoughts of quiting soon*

But I can't quit till March T.T

Darn it~~!

Oh well~ Chinese New Year?

Boring?~ Found out something

really cool though, my GrandAunt

lives really near his house O.O

It's like across the street ^^

Other than that? Hmm :/

First meet up with him since December? ^^

Hmm :/ not much else? Hahax ^-^

February!

*Strong thoughts of quitting!*

I've got absolutely no time for

my social life AT ALL. Thanks to that

freaking job -__-"

And well, he broke up with me 'cause

we never really saw each other much anymore :/

Kinda *numb* after the first few minutes of crying..

But yeah, he's right. I've gotta work and

I'm heading to polytechnic soon.

Posted to Digital Animation At SP by the way ^-^

1st choice! Hehe ;)

And he has to study for his O Levels and all~

I guess I understand that much...

But some how I got the feeling that it ain't over

yet :s I guess only time will tell huh? ^~^

Okay!

MARCH = Just started~~! Quitting on the 16th!

Darn April T_T Why did'cha come so fast??

I don't wanna turn 17 yet!~ Darn T^T

I wanna stay 16~~ But M18 shows *-*

Like Underworld Awakening, I'm so gonna

watch you in a cinema next year *_*

>.< okay weird convo? Haha ^^

OKAY~ So that's about it for my life since I MIA-ed

for like a few months ^^

Post again soon~ Just to re-read when I get older and um ._.

Listen to the Music! ^^ Hehe ♥

ENDx ---

9:22 PM

Monday, December 5, 2011

341 -

I'm tired,
I'm giving it my all.
I've tried,
I've given up.

konani mo kimi no omoi
So many of your memories

mo kokoro wa ko wa shi ma re
my heart is gonna break

kimi e shi a wa she nin na ru
I want to make you happy

haru haru, a no sora ni
Day by Day, staring at that sky

Haru Haru <3

I'll get by, one day.
Some day.
When I look up toward that sky.
I'll forget who was that guy.
And maybe one day,
I'll forget about you boy.

10:32 PM

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

340 -

O Levels are OVER :)
Prom is Over :)
And tomorrow I'll be starting work ^-^
But tomorrow I'll be going to Seletar Airport D:
It's so freaking far away :(
But I made a promise,
So I will have to keep it :)
I've got to make a little money at least :x
Next week I'm starting my official job though ^-^
Gonna install computers in schools :D
So okay, I've nothing else to update :)
So I'll update some other time ^^
Hopefully more often then the past few months :p

ENDx ---

6:15 PM

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

339 -

Time flies and my examinations are over.

But one thing I can't seem to shake still resides in my heart,

it causes my imagination to run wild and some times it

causes heartbreak but I already knew what would happen

if I let my heart win. And now I face the same consequences

once again. I just wish I could be more accepting to that fact,

and yet it still pains me to find out what I already know.

My friends think they know everything, yet they don't

even know half my story at times. There hasn't been anyone

whom I could trust since I got into that fight, yet I slowly opened

up to others.

I just hope that I won't get hurt in the future, it has to do with the

choices I make and it seems like I can't stop making the same mistake

over and over again.

Love might be blind, but I hope my eyes are clear enough to stay

away from those who only wish to make use of me in some way.

But it's not the fault of others, and neither do I blame them. I'm happy

with the way things are now.

But maybe had I made a different choice in the past, things would be different.

Yet I do not regret my choices, it was because of my choices that I am

content with the way things are around me now.

I still care for everyone who has been a part of my life until now,

and I will never stop caring even till I am asked to stop.

A blessing and a curse, my choices have caused me more pain then joy,

yet it makes me stronger with each consequence.

Till that day, I'll take it day by day.

Till the day I finally stop caring.

Till the day I finally stop crying.

Till the day I finally forget.

Forget the difficulties.

Forget the loneliness.

Forget the pain.

And move on.

ENDx ---

9:40 PM

Friday, October 28, 2011

338 -

O levels have STARTED! :D

English & Math Papers are OVER ^-^

Math Paper 2 today :/ and I've got a flu :(

Hope I can do well >.<

To O Level Students :

GOODLUCK!

GAMBATTE!

JIAYOUx!

:D

ENDx ---

8:00 PM

Thursday, October 20, 2011

337-

Practical exam CMI :p

Didn't read instructions :(

Well, must chiong theory :/

:) Jiayoux to all O Level Candidates!! ^^

LALALA <3

^-^ random :D

I miss the times when we would talk for hours about nothing :)

I wish we were still talking about random stuff each time we "talked" :p

I hope that one day I'll be able to say hi or at least SAY something :x

ENDx ---

6:52 PM

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

336 -

Jealous for no reason :(

Why is it that I get so Dx whenever I see ya with a gal -.-

I mean I'm not even anyone to ya >x<

DAMN IT Dx<

=.=

I feel so stupid for liking someone who likes someone else :(

D: almost 10 months and I'm still not over ya >.<

DARN >:@

What is wrong with me :'(

ENDx ---

8:38 PM

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

335 -

8 days till O's >.<

JIAYOUx EVERYONE! xD

ENDx ---

These days I can't even look at you without smiling like some smitten little girl D:

7:41 PM

Sunday, September 18, 2011

334 -

Okay, time to get a little scary :)

Frankly, I'm pissed off. Yeah, at whom? Who else other than that FREAK of a brother I have. He is not only disrespectful and irritating, he has failed to learn proper manners in the last 15 FREAKING years of his life. Some day, I will skin him alive, to the bone. He is so IRRITATING AND HE IS SUCH A FREAKING ASSHOLE. I ask a few questions because I'm curious and he can only say things to me in the most disrespectful tone I have ever heard, moreover he even commented on my questions in an irritating and annoyed tone. Hey, I got something for ya' how about NOT ANSWERING?! Have you thought of that brother? :@ @#$%! Anyway, other than that, he commented saying this sentence, " Can you stop asking your annoying questions?" in the most outrageous tone ever. I mean dude SCREW YOU, and further more I wish you nothing less than to end up in the pits of HELL. @#$$%@! Seriously, you are the only godforsaken person I have ever felt inclined to use so many unspeakable vulgarities at. I'm not surprised if you die ALONE brother, you are nothing more than a spoiled child because you are the only male species on Dad's side. But hey, I'm happy to know that maybe one day you'll find a mail order bride to bear your children because I can't imagine who in HELL would marry such a twerp like you. You are RUDE, and hey it's your fault I started to hate guys in the first place. It's people like you that make females all around the world think all guys are jerks and we don't need them. Heck, one day you'll die OLD, ALONE and IN PAIN. But as your sister, I wish you all the best in life and hope you'll find a girl who wants you or change your ways of dealing with people. :) That's the least I can do, after all you are the one who taught me that some guys are jerks.

Sometimes I do wonder, why can't you be like the friends I have? :) They are such nice guys, unlike you. It's only when I met them did I realize not all guys are as self-centered and rude as you are. I mean, I get along with them way better than I have with you. So yeah, being your sister has taught me that guys can be nice and sweet or rude and self-centered. Thanks a lot bro, seriously, for teaching me the basics of humanity, but curse you for pissing me off everyday of the WHOLE FREAKING WEEK. Yeah? I know you know I hate you :) Always have brother. I just wish you would stop being that tiny tempered guy I grew up with and START GROWING UP and get all your morals right and of course get that attitude of yours fixed.

ENDx ---

1:14 PM

Sunday, September 4, 2011

333 -

September 4, 2011.

A Few more weeks till the examinations end.

And then, we'll be free ♥

The past few months of Secondary 4 were more emotional than anything else,

and now it's time to step it up and prove that miracles do exist. :)

GOODLUCK FOR THE O's ♥

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------

♥♥ I never want to forget, yet I feel like I'm a bother.

So what should I do...

8 months might be long, but I know which lasted longer :)

8 months, brought me here. ♥

ENDx ---

3:43 PM

Friday, August 26, 2011

332 -

You're always on my mind,
I think about you all the time ♥

-He Said She Said by Tim ft. Esna; Cover by Megan Lee and Jonathan/EM ♥

4:03 PM

Monday, August 22, 2011

331 -

I told myself I woud smile no matter what, but now I just want to hug someone or something and cry my eyes out. My emotions have been shaken to their core, I'm not even sure how to feel but the tears are building up from no where and I feel as though I'll break soon... A smile, a frown, a single word could turn my world upside down right now. It's the first time I feel so fragile, so close to breaking.

5 days till 8 months have passed, the first time I've ever fallen this hard, it won't be long till I forget, maybe... We're graduating, and going our seperate ways soon, maybe then I'll forget. Maybe...

ENDx ---

9:02 PM

Sunday, July 31, 2011

330 -

Life has been hectic this past week, headaches, giddiness and nausea?

It really takes a lot to still be able to walk or stand these past few days. Fortunately, my stitches are out, and I'm feeling much better.

Hopefully I'll be able to attend a full week of school starting tomorrow. :)

I miss so many people :(

I just hope that I won't fall ill anymore, and hope to see my friends more often. After all being absent for such a long time does make you miss people. :/

But you know what I miss the most? I miss having those long meaning full and meaning less talks with my friends, since secondary 4 started I've had only a few of such conversations... Even less now that O Levels are only 9 Fridays away?

Well, God Bless & Good Luck for GCE O Level's ♥

Looking forward to the end of our examinations!~

ENDx ---

2:55 PM

Monday, July 25, 2011

329 -

The headaches have come back, each time I stand it comes and lasts for 10 to 15 seconds before it fades. Something is wrong, I know something is wrong. I haven't been feeling well since Saturday, the headaches, heartaches and breathlessness, even nausea. I might not be going back to school as quickly as I anticipated, but I will be back by this week.

God Bless & I miss all of you ♥

ENDx ---

8:59 PM

Saturday, July 23, 2011

328 -

Some how I don't ever want to go back to school ever again... Maybe it'll allow me the time to really think about things and forget so much faster. These few days my thoughts have been jumbled, and I can't seem to think straight or even think about the stuff that really does matter, they're clouded by thoughts of people how they react and how they act.

The thoughts run through my mind the whole day, memories resurface and thoughts form around them. Questions surface. Each reaction triggers a different thought, each word a different meaning, uncovering things I never thought were true. Though, it all makes sense now. The feuds, the lies and the truth behind everything I've been through... I should have seen them coming, seen through that veil that blinded me so. I shouldn't have been surprised at everything happening now, the fight and these feelings, I should have seen them coming a long time ago. So why didn't I?

Memories are flooding back to me, every last detail. Every word spoken, every gesture made. I never knew I could have been this blind, the feuds... They occurred because of the past we had, the bad memories and the things we just couldn't ever agree on, they didn't happen just because we changed. They happened because of our different personalities, the way we handle different situations and it only amplified when we did change.

Those feelings, they're just another shroud over me. I have those feeling because I never had someone actually care for me when I was little, ever since kindergarden I was always teased and bullied by the guys, which caused me to hate even my own brother. My father had often punish my brother and I when we were little so we would be disciplined when we got older, that was why I didn't really favor my father in the past. So my past affected my feelings toward every guy I ever met, the way they treated and spoke to me were distinguished even by the slightest tint. So these feelings aren't as genuine as I thought, maybe. They were created because of the care those people showed to me, they all came and went but this time I'm not too sure when it'll fade, if it ever does.

My past has affected my whole present state, and maybe I'm just another pawn in the game of life but these few days have made my mind clearer than it has ever been. My past made me who I am today, so this present time will decide my future, my life is what I made of it. Other factors are just obstacles that I have to over come, and so from now onward I'll strive for the future I want and though I can't change my past, I can shape my present to form my future.

"Care is the greatest gift you could give, so why not start caring?"

ENDx ---

11:32 PM

Friday, July 22, 2011

327 -

Over the span of 3 days of being absent, I received messages from Bronte, SiewPeng, GuanYi and Germaine :) It was nice having people ask why I didn't go to school ^^ But I guess a lot of people didn't ask because they already know why I was absent :( maybe I shouldn't tell people next time :o make me feel less lonely LOL hahax xD just kidding :p

Had a horror movie marathon with my dad yesterday ^^ It was fun ^^ but the movies weren't that scary. We watched Nightmare on Elm Street and Child's Eye. Hmm nothing scary really :/

Anyway~ I'm going back to school on Monday~! :) See all my friends and teachers and *coughs* everyone else :) So I'm looking forward to Monday! ^o^

Maybe by then I'll stop thinking bout stuff :/ it's creepy to keep thinking bout random stuff the whole day because your bored and there's really nothing to do besides studying and slacking where by slacking always wins. Hmm~ okay enough randomness ._.

LOVE YA!~

Endx ---

9:42 AM

Thursday, July 21, 2011

326 -

Hihi! Just got my wisdom tooth pulled :(

It doesn't hurt that bad but the lower left side of my face is swollen and really sore D:

So I didn't go to school yesterday and now I'm still home :) so you should know what that means? Anyway, I might not be going to school tomorrow either :/

So GOD BLESS ALL MY FRIENDS ATTENDING THE ADAM KHOO WORKSHOP! ^-^

LOVE YA! ♥

ENDx ---

7:47 AM

Monday, July 11, 2011

325 -

Had a great day :)

Although 10 graphs seem like hell~~ The one thing that made my day was that he smiled at me whenever I saw him walk past. :)

My Happy Day~ ♥

I've stopped thinking about the negatives in life, and now I feel better! With an attitude that is ignorant to some yet all the same to everyone else. ♥

Lovex~

ENDx ---

9:06 PM

Friday, July 8, 2011

324 -

Some quotes I found quite true.

"I hate it when you can't stop thinking about that one person,

yet deep down inside you know they probably haven't thought of you once."

"I can talk about him all day, but when he's around I'm speechless. "

This last one bites.

Me liking You. - Reality.

You liking Me. - Fantasy.

You and Me. - Too good to be true.

ENDx ---

9:25 PM

323 -

Another day. Life goes on. I've decided, I'm gonna stop my nonsense and start working hard. No more boasting, no more venting, no more out bursts and no more thinking of other stuff. I might not be able to actually go through with the last one but I'll try.

From now on, I'm on my own, I'm not gonna sit around and laze any longer. I'm gonna prove to my parents that I am capable of studying in the library and prove that with hard work on my end, maybe I'll get better results.

So for now, I'm gonna forget about the feuds and everything that upsets me, I'm gonna be positive for almost anything that happens. I'll put on a smile through my tears and stop depending too much on others, that's my promise to myself. I'm gonna be less childish in the ways I confront a problem from now on.

Although, I will still be the same in school and deep down, I'm gonna start making some changes for the sake of myself, to give myself the chance to achieve something with everything I've got. God bless & I love all of you. ♥

I'm sorry for the trouble I've caused, the time I've wasted and everything else. Had I not met you, you might have had a better life or at least someone who was better yet cared the same way. I'm sorry ... ♥

ENDx ---

9:07 PM

Thursday, July 7, 2011

322 -

There is only one word to sum up how I felt when I saw that on FaceBook.

-Hurt .

ENDx ---

9:14 PM

321 -

I'm confused, lost and whatever else that makes a person feel depressed and upset. Life sucks and then you die huh? I'm just breaking down again, re-reading everything you've said to me before and what you've put up in facebook.

I was fine with the ignorance, but now I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm untrustworthy, I'm a snob and everything negative to you. So why should I bother so much anymore ...

I guess it stings when something new comes up huh? So can I just die or something? Get outta your way and live a more peaceful life? Maybe I should have let that car hit me just now ... Look whatever, so if you're done playing with the veil of friendship you weaved ages ago, I'm done.

ENDx ---

8:46 PM

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

320 -

Had a math test today, and 5 minutes before math class I prayed that we wouldn't have a test today... Why? :o Because I found out that my calculator had no more battery and was DEAD -.-

Kay so ... Let's continue shall we? :) On with life and my useless rants for everyone in the world to see and say "This is such a weird-o." Yeah, I know kay? :p

Let's see, I realized something, I really shouldn't have posted the previous post because I really hope he didn't/doesn't read that, but I'm not gonna delete it cause it'll waste my time. So moving on, I also realized that once someone deems you untrustworthy, you will forever be untrustworthy to that person. Especially those who tend to hold grudges and refuse to let go of every single detail. SO, another fight! AGAIN. Why? Because she deems me untrustworthy to her yet AGAIN. So, this would be the 2nd time that she put out there publicly. Other times are more minor? I'm not sure, but either way things aren't going well.

We seldom speak now, distancing in progress! Kay, so I guess nothing will ever be the same, from now on I will find other friends to be with I guess.

Oh yes, I just finished my Chinese O Level Oral, IT.WAS.HORRIBLY.EASY.BUT.HARD. Which simply means that I knew what to say but didn't say it because I blanked during the examination, and I just spout whatever nonsense I could think of. So, I do not think I will do well.

Anyway~ I've gotta do my homework now, so till next time. ♥

ENDx ---

9:06 PM

Sunday, July 3, 2011

319 -

Thinking day and night, thinking 'bout nothing but him. Gawd, it's odd and creepy. Jasmine says I feel in love? :o But I'm not too sure, hope this doesn't end too badly, when it comes to a point of change I hope it'll be painless like the last time.

Now a days, whenever I see a guy, any guy at all, I just think 'bout him. It's time to let go, so how am I gonna do that? This is really getting creepy for me, it's like I'm obsessed. :(

Whenever I hear his name or see him walking by, I smile no matter how I feel, even when I'm really depressed. So what the heck is wrong with me ...

Maybe it's because I've never really liked a guy this much before, who knows? At least I'm not bothering him day and night, and now it's time to stop bothering him for the rest of the time before our O's.

God Bless my Family & Friends. I love you guys ♥

ENDx ---

10:29 PM

Saturday, July 2, 2011

318 -

I've been thinking a lot lately... About my studies and how I'm dealing emotionally, it turns out that I'm more fragile than I've ever been, and I'm afraid that I won't be able to do well for my oral as Sophia is just before me and she is known as the top oral scorer for mother tongue... I feel doomed in a sense...

I'm afraid and well ... just messed up inside ... My ideas falling to pieces as my emotions run wild. Sometimes I wonder who I really am, who I'm supposed to be for that matter. Am I supposed to be the little girl who keeps getting scared over everything or am I supposed to be the scary girl that no one dares to irritate. It really got me thinking, should I really be that nice to everyone because it's in my nature some how, or should I just let go and spew everything I want in front of them.

It's hard to be a person with such different states of mind at different times, I guess it's creepy and weird and well, mental I guess ... I bet whoever reads this will start thinking, "Is this girl a patient from IMH or something?" But I guess maybe I'm supposed to be there, huh?

I kinda wonder, why did I act so awkward to the people who used to like me ... I mean they were so sweet and kind and caring, so why didn't I care for them the same way? Why did I treat them like the way my friend treats the guy that likes her now? Ignorance is bliss they say, but when you start thinking ... It never feels good to be the one on the other side of that one-sided feeling, so why not treasure every one around you? Some how I've only come to realize that now, thinking back ... I should have treated those who cared for me better than I did, they deserved it. I guess I'm learning from experience? Time really flies, but some how I can't shake the feeling.

I tell myself, one day I'll shake it, one day ... But who knows when? It took me a little over 3 years to forget the first guy I liked and that's only because I fell for another guy and never spoke to him for more than a 15 seconds, so how long will the second time last?

Waiting ... Till that day ♥ Till the day I forget about everything -

ENDx ---

10:34 PM

Thursday, June 30, 2011

317 -

I'm sorry for saying so much about all that crap. I was just feeling kinda down and pissed at everything ...

So I don't mind if you read this one day and decide that you'll never forgive me. Well I'm feeling a little better now, actually more that just better. I feel totally different from when I was arguing with you, I feel like how I felt in lower secondary. Happy, LOUD, RANDOM & well I don't know, just more relaxed than ever since we entered secondary 3.

I'm not sure why, but I just feel so much better. Ever since school ended, I just felt released of all my stress and crap. And for once, I'm not sad or upset or irritated or annoyed or anything, I'm just happy.

I'm gonna continue this spree as I work toward my studies, so I can be as light headed as possible while working my hardest for the first time.

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7:02 PM

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

316 -

How could we still be friends when such a thin thread hangs in the balance of our friendship? It's bound to snap one day, but I have a feeling that it'll keep breaking and mending over and over again. So really, what am I to you? A friend or a toy? I'm not saying this behind your back or anything, but I find it rather rude to be furious at you when talking about this. So simply put, our friendship has not fully mended, it just started to heal. But things are getting really out of hand.

Firstly, I want to ask you something, you know who you are and I don't mean to be rude in anyway but, Hey am I a freaking toy to you? Why? Because I'm always the one taking in all your problems when you decide to talk about them, yet I'm always the one who gets the cold shoulder first in your list of friends.

And at last I have reached an epiphany, when you're happy or feeling alright, you treat me like a princess, a dear friend. But when you're sad or upset over anything, you treat me like a pauper, some useless person on the side of the street you wouldn't give a damn about. In fact, you shut everyone out once you get upset.

When we want to cheer you up, you push us a side. When we speak, you ignore us. So what do you want from us? To be your friends or to be people who couldn't give a damn about how you feel? I know you don't want to give a damn anymore, but hey we want to give a damn. So couldn't you just open up a little? Why can't you just try to let us in? Are you that afraid that we're gonna take you for granted and leave you when you're at your weakest to crush you? OH GAWD. PLEASE! I have been through a lot of what you have, sure you can say that you have family problems when I have such a perfect family. You can say that I've never been through a break up, that's all true. However, I've opened my heart to so many people who have let me down so many times over and over, but I never shut anyone out of my heart. Even if they treat me unfairly, especially some people, I still forgive and forget. Ever since that incident, you've changed a lot.

I know it doesn't make sense, but I really gotta get all of this out of my mind before I go mad or start crying due to over baggage of all this crap. I'm on the verge of losing it, you treat me like I'm the bitch who keeps getting better results even though I don't study when you've studied like crap. Hey maybe thats how you see me, some useless pain in the ass of a friend or tool that was born smart or something, do you think I wanted this? Do you think I want all those comments? You know, if you wanted to make such comments, why do you still hang out with me? Oh gawd ...

Maybe it was wrong to choose to go to E3 in the first place, then maybe, just maybe, we wouldn't be fighting all the time. That way not only would we be saving our tears and frustration, maybe you would have done better without me. Hey, maybe I'm at fault for being in the same class as you, for causing you extra stress even! GAWD! Like JEEZ! Just forget it ... I'm just ranting, and what for? I'm just wasting my time writing all this shit when I could be studying for examinations ...

-I'm sorry, but I've been through enough.

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8:01 PM

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

315 -

It sucks when your best friend just turns on you and says that you're from totally different worlds. It stings so damn bad when some one says that, yet I felt no tears. Maybe it's cause I've through it so many times that my tears have all dried up, people change. Everything does, nothing in this world remains the same forever, change might be minor but it can cause a major effect.

Some times I just wish we never met, so I wouldn't be the one on the other side whenever you got mad or upset. Other times I just wish you didn't change because of him, but I know that's just impossible in so many ways. The rest of the times I just wish we could get along like we used to, but who cares right?

Time passes as history repeats again and again and again. I hate that I can't stay mad at you, I hate that I always forgive you no matter what, and I hate that you keep doing the same thing to me. So I've got so much hate, but I can't bring myself to actually hate you, why? Why can't I just stay mad at you for more than a day? Why am I still putting on that smile for you even after so much pain you've put me through? Why should I even care anymore? Why can't I just stop caring?

Damn it. I just wanna change this stupid character in me that forgives you way too easily, and why the hell am I afraid of you? I just want to rid myself of you, but I can't. So why don't you just leave me alone after you crash my hope over and over again? I mean, if you hate me enough to keep doing this to me, why don't you have a heart and leave me alone for good? I don't want to end our "friendship" but things are getting harder and harder to accept, and more over your attitude isn't helping one bit.

Sorry for ranting but that's really how I feel whether you read this or not... I just hope we can stop all this useless fighting because the next time this happens, my face will be fixed. No more tears will run and I won't waste my energy on you anymore. I'm sorry for being such a bitch about this, but I hope you understand. I'm trying to get over him but I don't have much time left before the 6th month, and this extra drama isn't making it any easier. It serves otherwise, I'm thinking bout him more and more as we fight, so can't we just cool down... I'm gonna break if I don't have anyone to fall back soon, I just want to stand firmly on my two feet instead of relying too much on others to help me up.

I'm really sorry, but things have gone a tad bit too far, hasn't it? ... ...

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4:04 PM

Sunday, December 5, 2010

314 -

Hihi! back to post again :p
its been over a month of no update x.x
sry guys~~ so I'm not gnna post
my results cause, um i forgot where
I put my report book x.x
anyway currently planning
something that really made me
kinda busy x.x finding loop holes~~
*sigh* I'm never gonna go into
planning when I grow up x.x
so troublesome~~ especially if its
for people I don't know x.x
If for friends still okay ^^
I don't get why so many blog-walkers here *_*
oh well... whatever~~
Thanks for Taggx from those peeps
I know ^^ sorry for wasting your messages x.x
kaykayx so nothing else to post ^^
Christmas is coming! ^^

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2:31 PM

Friday, October 29, 2010

313 -

Kay here to post again ^^

finally, so results not so good D:

although top 10 but still suck-ish...

marks will post later when I get

back from m'sia yeah?

haha ^^ kay so saw RQ result

and asked Ben his results...

both win me T_T sad case

LOL thn that Goon Yin

also win me -.- irritated...

should have studied harder

for my exams D:

mostly is my mid-year pull me

down -_-" curse myself for

being lazy... never do hmwk

thn now cry cause results

not good enough stupid girl :x

oh well for next year will

definitely get top in class ^^

must win the guys at all

cost xD promised Siuhui

to get top too ^^ hahax

kay so post again soon :p

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4:19 PM

Monday, October 4, 2010

312 -

Kay so exams just started

today :x mother tongue paper

D: really scared will fail T.T

but anyway Gd luck to

all for the remaining exams

and tomorrows English paper ^^

will post again after exams :p

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9:00 PM

Friday, September 24, 2010

311 -

Exams starting soon,

approximately 9 days

before it starts for

Languages, other

subjects in roughly

16 days...

I really can't believe

that 1 year is over so soon,

hopefully my results

will be good enough D:

I really gotta ace most

my subjects to get into

design when I get a job...

Either design or forensics...

both are fascinating or

kinda interesting to me

so my future job will either

be a sort of designer or

a forensic scientist :p

Gonna earn loads of

cash to give my parents

a life of luxury ^^

Kay, other then that

crap, just hope nothing

bad happens for now...

Been feeling kinda down lately...

Not sure why but,

just feel kinda down...

like I just wanna crawl

into a hole somewhere

with a view of the stars

and start crying...

guess nothing changed

since day 1, but now

I don't think it'd be

wise to go back again...

just hoping for the best

for all, I really don't

wanna go back...

It all just makes me

start to think that

I can no longer cherish

anyone that much no more...

The more I cherish someone,

the more painful it'll

hurt when they leave,

by will or by fate...

It'll just hurt too much...

I never wanna feel that

hurt ever again... it still

hurts after so long, I can't

believe it has to be like this...

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3:32 PM

Sunday, September 12, 2010

310 -

Kay back to post again.

for the next few weeks

may not post as much

cause exams in 3 weeks

or so, so I'll be busy

doing all my freaking

homework -.- other

then that Hope all of

you guys get good

results for EOY!

for me I must aim

top 5 xD then I

get the new xbox :p

Kay nothing else to

say, gotta do math & D&T

homework :p

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2:28 PM

Friday, August 27, 2010

Okay I know this is
a lot of posts for 1 day :x
but I keep seeing stuff thats
like really cute or kinda true~
Now its my horoscope O_O

Aries people have a tendency to leap before looking and to take risks that shock more cautious types. This is a very physically courageous sign, so it is not surprising that many Aries people gravitate toward risky professions such as the military, the police force, stunt work, sports, rescue work and racecar driving. Aries people are also emotionally courageous to the point of recklessness and will change their entire lives on a whim in order to follow some dream or romantic inclination.

Accident-Prone and Impulsive
Aries people are accident-prone, not because they are clumsy but because they move quickly and impulsively. Aries people like to drive fast and many have an interest in extreme or high-impact sports. Aries people crave the adrenaline rush of novelty and will often take unnecessary risks in order to achieve it.

Mechanically Inclined
The sign of Aries is associated with engines, and many people with the sun, moon or ascendant in Aries are good with anything that has a motor. Many Aries people are drawn to professions or pastimes that involve driving or flying.

Pioneering and Entrepreneurial
Aries people are pioneering and entrepreneurial, willing to go to new places, try new things and start new projects. They often have trouble with authority and do better as their own bosses. They are good at self-promotion, which ensures that many succeed in their own businesses.

Aries people are not particularly suited to detail work and prefer to implement big plans or start things and have others fill in the details. They are good at coming up with creative ideas on the spot but may have trouble sustaining the effort to follow through with their plans unless the ascendant or moon is in an Earth sign (Taurus, Virgo or Capricorn) or in the water sign of Cancer or Scorpio.

Aries people have very low boredom thresholds and can lose interest in things quite easily. Thus, a career must provide lots of change, social interaction and excitement or the Aries will want to move on.

High Energy and Athletic Ability
Most Aries people have loads of energy, which they need to burn off continuously through physical activities and socializing. They are competitive by nature and usually have an aptitude for athletics, either team sports or solitary fitness activities. Most also enjoy watching sports and other physical displays such as dance, skating, skiing or other fitness activities that require movement and coordination. There is usually a particularly strong draw toward martial arts with this sign.


Aries is a very sociable sign. Aries people like to be around other people most of the time and seek out novel and exciting situations. They prefer people who challenge them intellectually and compete with them in some way, and they quickly grow bored and irritated with homebodies and cautious, timid types.Extroverted and Friendly
Impatient and Combative
Aries people think fast, move fast and talk fast (many of them are chatterboxes). They are not very patient, particularly with slow moving, slow speaking people. In fact, Aries is the least patient sign of the zodiac.

Aries people are forceful and even aggressive when pursuing what they want, and willing to charge head first into conflict. They prefer to deal with problems immediately, head on, and will rarely avoid confrontation. This leads them to poke at and provoke some of the more avoidant types until they can implement some sort of catharsis in interpersonal situations. Aries people often have little respect for those who can’t put up a good fight.

Honest to the Point of Rudeness
Aries people tend to be honest and forthright, almost to a fault at times. They are not subtle, and they have terrible tempers that are easily set off, though they are also quick to forgive. They often say and do things rashly that cause strife in their interpersonal relationships. A lack of tact can create problems. When bored, Aries people may pick fights simply to entertain themselves and fulfill their subconscious need for conflict.

Altruistic
The Aries paradox is a strange combination of selfishness and generosity. Aries people can be self-absorbed and self-centered at times, but this is also one of the most altruistic signs, and Aries people are usually quick to help those in need, even at great personal cost and risk. This, combined with the Aries propensity to take risks, leads many Aries people into the rescuing professions such as firefighter, paramedic, peacekeeper or coast guard.

Aries people may turn their desire to help in another direction and get into the idealistic side of politics, working to change the system from within. Most Aries people have a strong interest in politics, though this may take the form of argument rather than action.

Youthful and Idealistic
Aries people tend to be fun, lively, playful and youthful. Many look younger than their chronological ages and most retain some childlike qualities throughout adulthood, both physically and psychologically.

Despite the emotional courage of this sign, Aries people are surprisingly sensitive and eager to please. Though they can be pushy and domineering or controlling at times, they are also idealistic, trusting, and in great need of reassurance. Aries people can be quite naïve, and others may take advantage of this.

Naturally Optimistic
Aries people do nothing by half-measures. Anything they choose to do, they do fully and completely. They are stubborn and generally refuse to accept defeat, even long after a situation has become untenable. They rarely stay down for long though, as this is a naturally optimistic sign that bounces back quickly from misfortune and strife. Aries people have a way of coming out on top in most situations

Okay won't post any more :x

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10:32 PM

308 -

Kay xD a bit crazy over

Big Bang now, so when

I was browsing the web

I found this sort of quiz

thing, read through it..

Its like so super cute xD

'Which Big Bang boyfriend would you want in these situations?'

1. When I fall and hurt myself

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who gives me a piggy back ride to the hospital
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who makes fun of me because I fell
c. Dong Young- Bae, who runs to go buys medication
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who helps me get home
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who asks if it hurts a lot and blows on the place where it hurts


2. When I say I want a name brand item

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who buys a fake one and says later on, he'll make it a real one
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who pretends not to listen but buys it for me later
c. Dong Young-Bae, who promises to buy me one once he makes more money
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who keeps saying not to buy expencive things
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who keeps asking if he can buy me something else


3. While watching a horror movie

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who protects me
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who quietly covers my eyes
c. Dong Young-Bae, who comforts me by saying there's nothing to be scared of
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who holds my hand tightly
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who screams even before i scream


4. When my voice crack while singing

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who pinches my cheek and says i'm cute
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who laughs at me
c. Dong Young-Bae, who gets even more embarrassed than me
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who pretends he didn't hear it
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who makes fun of me by imitating me


5. When his friend says he likes me

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who says what are you trying to do and breaks ties with his friend
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who goes up and punches his friend
c. Dong Young-Bae, who talks it out with his friend
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who says he will introduce another girl to his friend
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who stops talking to his friend


6. When I'm mad at my boyfriend

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who starts a serious talk by asking me if I'm mad
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who says I'm sorry and says don't be mad
c. Dong Young-Bae, who sings to me
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who makes me laugh
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who does cute stuff around me


7. When my boyfriend meets my friends

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who compliments me in front of my friends
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who asks my friends to watch over our relationship
c. Dong Young-Bae, who makes me feel good by complimenting my friends
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who makes my friends comfortable as if they were his friends
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who asks my friends to consider him


8. On my birthday

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who takes me some place expencive
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who treats me better than other days
c. Dong Young-Bae, who makes me a special present
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who sings to me on a stage at a restaurant
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who says happy birthday all day long cheerfully


9. When we kiss

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who hugs me tight first
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who just does it
c. Dong Young-Bae, who asks first
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who becomes awkward first
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who asks if I can give him a kiss on the

cheek and turns his head when I'm about to kiss his cheeks


10. When it's raining and we only have one umbrella

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who shares the umbrella but he ends up getting wet
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who holds me really tight so both of us don't get wet
c. Dong Young-Bae, who give me the umbrella and he walks under the rain
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who tells me to wait and go gets another umbrella
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who just tosses the umbrella and have both of us to walk in the rain


11. When I say I want to break up

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who lets me go, saying he's sorry he didn't do much for me
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who is dumbfounded and says he never thought I'd break it off
c. Dong Young-Bae, who asks if he can hug me one last time
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who says farewell and lets me go, crying
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who clings and anxiously asks why I'm acting like this suddenly


12. When we go to the amusement park

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who suggests to ride what I want to ride
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who suggests to go to the haunted house first
c. Dong Young-Bae, who takes lots of pictures
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who eats this and that
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who forcefully takes me to scary rides


13. When he is paying at a restaurant but has no money

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who is sorry but asks if I could pay for now
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who grabs my hand and runs
c. Dong Young-Bae, who has them keep his belonging until he can pay
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who calls his friend to bring some money
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who is anxious and doesn't know what to do


14. When I talk to another guy

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who thinks it's no big deal
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who tells me not to talk to other guys
c. Dong Young-Bae, who can't say anything but actually bothers him
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who is curious and sneakingly wedges in the conversation
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who later asks what we talked about


15. When he can't reach me through the phone

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who says he's worried
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who comes to my house right away
c. Dong Young-Bae, who lets it by, thinking something must have happened
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who calls until I pick up
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who gets mad because I didn't pick up


16. When I tell him I love him

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who whispers in my ear that he loves me
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who kisses me
c. Dong Young-Bae, who hugs me without saying a word
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who smiles, embarrassed
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who hugs me tightly, saying he loves me too


17. When we're shopping

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who says it's boring and wants to go home already
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who picks out clothes for me
c. Dong Young-Bae, who does everything I want to do
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who impatiently follows me around
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who enjoys shopping more than I do


18. When I act cutely (like a kid)

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who thinks I'm cute and hugs me
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who says I'm not doing it right and shows an example
c. Dong Young-Bae, who tells me to do that everyday
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who just laughs
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who copies me


19. When we get held up by a gang

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who fights them
b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who grabs my hand and runs
c. Dong Young-Bae, who makes an effort to clear things out
d. Kang Dae-Sung, who calls the cops
e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who leaves me and runs away

:p all in italics is my choice haha xD

Majority is Lee Seung-Hyun,

which is Seung Ri!! :D He is like

so cute xD haha, looking forward

to Oct 23, Big Bang coming to Singapore!!

Hopefully :x cause YG Entertainment

have not confirmed T_T

hopefully they come !! I so wanna go :x

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9:47 PM

307 -

Month 1, Week 2.

Kay back to posting :p

Had an okay day I guess..

Had the chinese presentation D:

I was like shaking real bad,

too nervous ...

my knees were like gonna

give way, then my hands

were really trembling...

I don't even know why I

felt so scared ... Usually

I wouldn't be that scared...

but oh well... Kay so its been

a really long time since then.

SO I won't dwindle on it..

Next week, I've got

1 rehearsal and

1 meeting.

Teacher's day and ACES day

as well... so its gonna be a

kinda tiring week I guess..

But Wednesday is a holiday,

so I guess its okay. One thing

I an NOT looking forward to

is the 1 week holidays...

Not cause its boring or I gotta

go back to school but mainly

because that there is sure to

be tonnes of holiday homework.

*Sigh*

So next week gonna get back

our report books as well,

no complains so far. Just

hope to get good results

for end of year exams...

yeah, repeated a lot of times

already... So don't say anything :p

OH right, gonna try to make

a really cute looking cake,

and maybe one up to

restaurant standard :D

hahax ^^

Oh yeah, okay haha, found

this on the web too :p

People with blood type B tend to be curious and interested in everything.

They also lean to have many hobbies. If they are interested in something,

they will be buoyant, but unfortunately they will be bored fast. However,

they can choose the most important thing for them to do.

They lean to want to be number one in anything rather than just to be

average people. But, they usually ignore another activity if they have

focused on a certain activity. In other words, they cannot do some

activities at the same time.They look cheerful, enthusiastic, and bright.

But, they are actually not like their appearances. Indeed, they are

antisocial with many people.

They are rugged individualists who are straightforward

and like to do things their own way. Unluckily, their

insistence on being independent can sometimes go too

far and become a weakness.

Cause my blood type is B and I'm anti-social xD

mmm... other then that nothing else to say :o

So I'm ending it here ^-^

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3:45 PM

Monday, August 23, 2010

306 -

Month 1, Week 1.

Kay, back to posting, if you

ask me why got so many thing

at my tagboard, I also don't know

why... so um... moving on?

so far the chem making me blur -.-

all cause of MOLE but now

everything understand, -_-"

Ms Diana not a very good teacher,

no offence but I fall asleep

easily when she teach... Siuhui also...

then when people don't understand

she kinda repeat what she just said,

when actually other teachers would

explain in a different way ...

really, no offence cause thats my

opinion, I prefer Mr Sharin to her.

Firstly cause, he teach I won't fall

asleep.

Secondly, he knows more then

Ms Diana, sometimes she don't

know then ask Mr Sharin...

so? just like that lo... Don't understand

go read for myself :p

so now maths still okay ^^

Later reach Chapter 12,

maybe will blur I don't know...

but Chapter 13 now okay okay ^^

Quite easy if you know, if not

then you will be staring and

swearing at the circle :p

but its quite easy la...

so now worried bout Chapter 12

only D:

がんばって！加油！

hahax ^^ kay so, gonna end it here :p

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7:07 PM

Thursday, August 19, 2010

305 -

Month 1, Day 3.

Kay so been kinda lazy to post

lately, realised why so many

peeps make their blog private

now... anyway, since its really

troublesome, I won't. Hopefully

don't have more blog walkers or

people I don't know here :p

no offence but, I have some

unknown hatred toward

people who I don't know

or never heard of before :x

So results so far okay...

Feel a bit horrified over

recent events... Got kinda

fed-up when Muazzam

actually keep talking bout

3E4 peeps... Mainly because

got a lot of friends there...

Then we shouldn't be doing

this kinda thing, then he say

until E4 like 害群子马 like

that so then like got really

pissed, kinda shouted at him :x

I'm so freaking sorry Muazzam!! D:

then after that had another

lecture from Mr Kumar AGAIN...

During CCA, Mr Sharin ask us

write reflection/ survey us..

Cause he say a lot of people

come in not doing work then

don't feel like a CCA, just feel like

they come and do what they want~

so... gotta do the reflection give him

by Sunday :p

KAY! so got nothing else to say...

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5:29 PM

Thursday, August 12, 2010

304 -

Day 27~~~~

Kay so gotten like really used to it

already ^^ kinda feel fine now,

more stable haha...

Damn freaking happy now :D

All because I feel so much closer

to getting my own xbox/ laptop/

2nd computer now ! xD

Kay results were a damn shock

to me but in a good way so far ^^

hoping to pass history so I pass

5 subjects HAHAHAHA!

Chinese haven't given up

yet but I'll try my best~

but some how feel kinda

失败 now... maybe because

I could have gotten better

marks for math if I

remembered to shade

the damn number line -.-

oh well... a lot of 失败的东西

发身了。。。 like on

Monday, bake CAKE w/o

flour -.- forgot the damn flour

-_-" then today worse,

forgot to bring Physics & D&T

textbook... lucky borrow

Physics from Bronte ^^

D&T did product damn lucky xD

WAHAHA, gotta redo product -_-"

失败~~~~ haha, anyway...

nothing else to say already ^^

Good Luck for End Of Year!! xD

if CA fail never mind!! End Year

more important! ^-^

So cheer up if u didn't make it!

Kay, so I'll end it here ^o^

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6:26 PM

Friday, August 6, 2010

303 -

Day 21 :p

Okay some what today

made me feel like Cambodia

is a horrible place -.-

but actually I don't know

what its like :p

haha, so celebrated

asean day and national day...

so there is really nothing to

talk about.. Just heard

a lot of people talk bout

the countries -.- don't know

for what -_-" worse thing

that happen is the Drama club

got few of them say that

i'm cute -.- thats not what

people usually wanna hear~

oh well.. my hair was a mess D:

so whatever~ so long as its over ^^

haha okay so got nothing

else to post bout ^^

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