Tuesday, April 27, 2010

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posting again, finally?

yeah kinda...

been a bad month to say the

least... exam starts in 2 days

and alrd having as Yisuan

called it a "misunderstanding"

with some one...

gnna just tink through

before saying anything...

I just don't want to regret

anything anymore..

Cried today after talking

to Yisuan for a while..

actually when I was standing

I felt okay, but when I sat

next to her and rest my

head on her bag, I suddenly

cried... don't know why though...

so for now I'll just go solo,

and think bout what to do...

and if its really worth it..

but now, as in now now,

I'm gonna be studying for

the exams, and maybe cry

on my free time...

going solo ain't all that bad

to me... I kinda like

being alone some times...

but I guess I have not much

a choice, I'm really sorry

to those people who really

do care bout me, and I hope

for now you'll just leave me

be I guess... really sorry..

I just need to think things through..

To Yisuan, she knows why :

to your question just now,

well yeah I do... I really really

do... I would give anything to

make sure that they don't feel

anything negative... I really do

care deep down, I really have

nothing else in my heart...

I care because I care for them

truthfully, I don't care for the

sake of caring, I care cause I

have in my heart their

well-being... why would I

pretend to care bout something

I don't? I may pretend not to

care bout things I do but never

the opposite... This thing has

already hurt me really bad,

but I don't want to show it...

Deep down when she didn't

talk to me, I wanted to

cry my heart out... But

hey, I still tried to keep it in..

I hope you understand that...

I don't mean to be how I act when

I feel depressed, I just don't want

people to worry or get upset..

so whatever you think I don't mind

anymore... Thanks for listening. I

really wish that I had a choice of

not embarrassing one and not hurting

the other's feelings... I really need to

think it through, its not that I let

it happen with no response. I already

told the other person off, what else

do you want me or expect me to do?

Beg and plead for the other person

to believe what I tell her? I don't think

that will happen, and I know

very well that you can't force a

person to believe anything you say...

so I just figured, if the person doesn't

believe you, why bother wasting your

breath trying to convince some one

who won't believe you anyway...

I'm sorry... Thats all I can say,

but to others its just a few petty

words, they mean nothing as she

said once to me. What else should

I say? or do? If she doesn't want

to be with me then its fine by me,

I don't want to force her into doing

anything she doesn't want to. I

can't take it anymore alright?

Its not that easy, she doesn't

treat you the way she treats

some of us... so you wouldn't

know how it felt to be left

like that. It may not be true but

it is to me, cause I do feel that way.

That she treats some people better

than the others... & unless you tell me

that its not so, I just can't see that

truth yet. The things I'm seeing is different,

I just need some one to enlighten me

if I really have said anything wrong...

So yeah, I'm sorry but I can't do anything

that is beyond my reach...

6:39 PM

Welcome!

Name : Megan
Sign : Aries
Date : 05041995'
Year : 17

It's Me

Aries people have a tendency to leap before looking and to take risks that shock more cautious types. This is a very physically courageous sign, so it is not surprising that many Aries people gravitate toward risky professions such as the military, the police force, stunt work, sports, rescue work and racecar driving. Aries people are also emotionally courageous to the point of recklessness and will change their entire lives on a whim in order to follow some dream or romantic inclination.

Accident-Prone and Impulsive Aries people are accident-prone, not because they are clumsy but because they move quickly and impulsively. Aries people like to drive fast and many have an interest in extreme or high-impact sports. Aries people crave the adrenaline rush of novelty and will often take unnecessary risks in order to achieve it.

Mechanically Inclined The sign of Aries is associated with engines, and many people with the sun, moon or ascendant in Aries are good with anything that has a motor. Many Aries people are drawn to professions or pastimes that involve driving or flying.

Pioneering and Entrepreneurial Aries people are pioneering and entrepreneurial, willing to go to new places, try new things and start new projects. They often have trouble with authority and do better as their own bosses. They are good at self-promotion, which ensures that many succeed in their own businesses.

Aries people are not particularly suited to detail work and prefer to implement big plans or start things and have others fill in the details. They are good at coming up with creative ideas on the spot but may have trouble sustaining the effort to follow through with their plans unless the ascendant or moon is in an Earth sign (Taurus, Virgo or Capricorn) or in the water sign of Cancer or Scorpio.

Aries people have very low boredom thresholds and can lose interest in things quite easily. Thus, a career must provide lots of change, social interaction and excitement or the Aries will want to move on.

High Energy and Athletic Ability Most Aries people have loads of energy, which they need to burn off continuously through physical activities and socializing. They are competitive by nature and usually have an aptitude for athletics, either team sports or solitary fitness activities. Most also enjoy watching sports and other physical displays such as dance, skating, skiing or other fitness activities that require movement and coordination. There is usually a particularly strong draw toward martial arts with this sign.

Aries is a very sociable sign. Aries people like to be around other people most of the time and seek out novel and exciting situations. They prefer people who challenge them intellectually and compete with them in some way, and they quickly grow bored and irritated with homebodies and cautious, timid types.Extroverted and Friendly Impatient and Combative Aries people think fast, move fast and talk fast (many of them are chatterboxes). They are not very patient, particularly with slow moving, slow speaking people. In fact, Aries is the least patient sign of the zodiac.

Aries people are forceful and even aggressive when pursuing what they want, and willing to charge head first into conflict. They prefer to deal with problems immediately, head on, and will rarely avoid confrontation. This leads them to poke at and provoke some of the more avoidant types until they can implement some sort of catharsis in interpersonal situations. Aries people often have little respect for those who can’t put up a good fight.

Honest to the Point of Rudeness Aries people tend to be honest and forthright, almost to a fault at times. They are not subtle, and they have terrible tempers that are easily set off, though they are also quick to forgive. They often say and do things rashly that cause strife in their interpersonal relationships. A lack of tact can create problems. When bored, Aries people may pick fights simply to entertain themselves and fulfill their subconscious need for conflict.

Altruistic The Aries paradox is a strange combination of selfishness and generosity. Aries people can be self-absorbed and self-centered at times, but this is also one of the most altruistic signs, and Aries people are usually quick to help those in need, even at great personal cost and risk. This, combined with the Aries propensity to take risks, leads many Aries people into the rescuing professions such as firefighter, paramedic, peacekeeper or coast guard.

Aries people may turn their desire to help in another direction and get into the idealistic side of politics, working to change the system from within. Most Aries people have a strong interest in politics, though this may take the form of argument rather than action.

Youthful and Idealistic Aries people tend to be fun, lively, playful and youthful. Many look younger than their chronological ages and most retain some childlike qualities throughout adulthood, both physically and psychologically.

Despite the emotional courage of this sign, Aries people are surprisingly sensitive and eager to please. Though they can be pushy and domineering or controlling at times, they are also idealistic, trusting, and in great need of reassurance. Aries people can be quite naïve, and others may take advantage of this.

Naturally Optimistic Aries people do nothing by half-measures. Anything they choose to do, they do fully and completely. They are stubborn and generally refuse to accept defeat, even long after a situation has become untenable. They rarely stay down for long though, as this is a naturally optimistic sign that bounces back quickly from misfortune and strife. Aries people have a way of coming out on top in most situations



You lie with how you act.
You are a 'glass half full' kind of person,
or at least you pretend to be.
You act like the person people need.
You are quiet and logical in group that needs some morals.
You are upbeat and positive in a group that needs some excitement.
You are kind and understanding when people need a shoulder to cry on.
Basically, you lie about who you are.
Your kind heart is easily manipulated by people who are just looking to use you,
but you have a tendency to bring out the best in people.
You are a wonderfully positive person and everyone loves to be around you.
You live for your ever growing circle of friends.

You lie because you do not think about yourself.
You are happy if everyone else is happy,
and sometimes have a problem with thinking for yourself.
Only your truest friends have seen you when your tolerance has run out,
and your best friends are the ones who calm you down and
don't take advantage of this. Even if you have had a bad day,
you put a smile on for the people who need a positive person around.
However, you let your guard down easily for a smooth talker or
overly friendly stranger. Your kind heart is open to everyone,
which makes you a target for people with bad intentions.
Keep your friends close and let them help you pick out the bad people,
because they are your weakness.
It's true that people could use someone like you,
but remember to think about yourself from time to time
so you don't explode from holding it all in.
You don't want to lose the friends who understand you the best.

-If I won't change that about myself, no one can change me-

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